It hasn’t been easy dealing with everything that happened in the fall of 2022. That’s the part I am working on now. It’s a lot to process, and I am trying my best to get through it.

I never said this would be easy. It’s not. It’s hard to deal with the fact that I became so ill and not once did I seek treatment until it was forced upon me.

I wonder about this. I know why I don’t. It’s because it never helps. It’s a miserable thing to go through. It’s depersonalizing to someone who is already suffering enough.

I have been in the hospital so many times over my life that I have learned everything they want to teach me in groups. That’s useless, and I never want to attend them anyway. So, what’s the use of me even being in there? I can have my meds adjusted at home, with the help of my doctor, where I am more comfortable anyway. Why go through that horrible experience of being inpatient when I am already going through enough? What’s the use? I just don’t get it.

I can understand that I need to be in the hospital when I am a clear and present danger to myself or someone else. That’s completely understandable. But what about the other times?

It’s a waste of insurance money. My family would love it if I ran to the hospital every time something happened involving me that made them uncomfortable. They would feel better, even though going inpatient is hell on me. i have told them many times that they could benefit from a support group for families of the mentally ill. They don’t want to do that anymore than I want to go to the hospital.

Anyway, I am trying to explain how things are without giving away any content from my book. That’s difficult itself. I would love to be able to explain things to you, but it’s not possible at this moment in time. I promise that later we will discuss the book in great detail. That will be after it’s done and hopefully published.

The book is coming along nicely. I am very proud of the effort I am putting forth. It’s been a struggle, but it will all be worth it in the end. Writing this book is helping me cope with everything that happened and help to put it behind me. I need closure, so I can go on with my life Hopefully, I will get come clarity from this all, too.

I am happy you have come along for the ride! I appreciate your interest in what I am up to here and what I have going on. Feel free to follow along. That’s the whole point of this blog. You’re also welcome to join the community and become involved. I hope that grows over time.

Thanks for stopping by! Come back again soon!

Sincerely, R. Kline

PS. I haven’t been doing very well lately, as I am working through this. There’s been a lot in life that is weighing me down. A lot has happened, even though I don’t want to be so open about that here. All I will say is that I am now off work because of my disability, and I will be for some time yet in the future. I won’t be returning to my last job. I will be finding a new one. Bear with me. I am doing the best I can. Thanks again for your support! Feel free to comment or like this post. Take care!